Friday, September 19, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
Mikah's unassisted birth story (with pics)
THE UNASSISTED BIRTH OF MIKAH DONOVAN
KRIS-my husband
DAWN-my mother-in-law
JAKE-my 21-month old son
KAILEY-my sister-in-law, the photographer
Tuesday evening: The Family and I went to eat at a local rich Italian restaurant, Villa Gargano. We had eaten there when I was pregnant with Jake and my water had broken 23 hours later. We were hoping for the same effect.
Wednesday:
In the afternoon, I started having more contractions. They were pretty irregular, spaced out, but a little painful. I'd had plenty of these the past few days but was wanting it to be regular. I was ready. I got a tip from a mama online from a message board that Target always gave her strong, painful contractions... so I decided, what the heck, I'll try it out.
EARLY LABOR
Jake and I were at Target from 6:15 to around 7, where I had several strong contractions. We played with all the car seats in the kids' section and then I put him in a carrier and walked around a little more. When I got too tired, I went home.
When I got home, Kris managed the miracle of getting Jake to sleep... but couldn't put him down. So, at about 8:30, when I realized Kris hadn't eaten since Gargano's (6pm the night before!), I went to Wendy's for him. I had one contraction in the drive-thru and one in the car when I was almost home. I also had one as I was walking in the door. They were about 4 minutes apart at this point, but I was still pretty upbeat between them, folding laundry and printing Bible verses to help me focus.
Kris's mom (Dawn) came at about 10:30 so Kris could go to work, and after he left, Jake woke up. I tried rocking him back to sleep, with several very painful contractions (back labor? In a recliner?), but wasn't successful. Eventually he went to Dawn and I was able to sneak out and get in the tub.
ACTIVE LABOR
Thursday:
I was in the tub alone (with iTunes) from about 11:45 to 2, when Kris came home from work. Once he arrived, I was able to stop worrying about calling him too late and things got pretty serious. I stayed in the tub a little longer, maybe until 3, when I had to get out and go to the bathroom. Those toilet contractions were killer, but when I was done, I absolutely did NOT want to get back in the tub. Here I was doing everything to plan for a water birth, and the thought repulsed me.
So we moved to the bedroom and I sat on a towel, on the birth ball, burying my face in the bed. After awhile, I couldn't do this anymore either. I was tired, and wanted to lie down and go to sleep (I know...). So I piled up a ton of pillows and laid into them with contractions.
TRANSITION
They were coming every 2 minutes or less at this point, and while I wasn't panicking, I was in a freakish amount of pain during contractions. My low, deep moaning was getting higher-pitched at the peaks of contractions, and I felt like I was losing control. I made the same pillow-pile up on my bed and got up there, since my knees were hurting from the floor. Kris was still providing great lower-back counter pressure, and awesome back massage between contractions (to make up for all the massages I gave him while *I* was pregnant!).
This is the point in labor that I printed all those Bible verses for, but I just couldn't think of any of them. The only thing I could think about was the header on a blog I read frequently: "Run with endurance the race that lies before us." Hebrews 12:1. That's exactly how it felt, and it was absolutely perfect.
I think I passed full dilation on the bed, but I lost my "primal instinct" for a few minutes and tried to think too much. I had felt the baby moving down during contractions (and my belly was visibly lower) so I tried to check my cervix to see if I could feel a head (and maybe some cervical lip that would mean I needed to wait on pushing). Well, what I felt didn't feel anything like head. It felt very squishy and smooth, like a butt. I thought to myself, he was head down early in labor, did he turn in the tub? And I immediately stopped "test-pushing" because I remembered that you needed to make SURE you're fully dilated if you deliver a breech. But after awhile I couldn't help it anymore. I was screaming and roaring VERY loudly through contractions, and I HAD to push. I had to do SOMEthing. I was hoping for that awesome relief that everyone talks about, but I didn't feel it. In fact, pushing was much more intense and painful than with Jake's delivery. Again, my over-analyzing brain said it was because baby was breech, which would be harder work (yes, I was still thinking 100% coherently the entire time).
During one push, I actually stopped scream/roaring long enough to do a good, silent, focused push. And it felt very good and very right, so I immediately yelled to Kris to lay down the sheet (the other shower curtain, on the floor). I pushed really hard on the bed again and felt water go everywhere. I wasn't sure whether it was urine or amniotic fludid (even in labor, haha!) but the mattress was protected, so whatever (in hindsight, you'll see, it was urine. I'd had to pee but could NOT get up and go... heck, I guess that's one way to sterilize an area, right? LOL).
DELIVERY
As soon as the liner was down, I crawled onto the floor and got on my hands and knees, with my head on the mattress. I pushed like crazy for 3 contractions, each time yelling at Kris to push on my back, and to hold the hot wash cloth on my perineum (to avoid tears). After a few pushes, I could feel him crowning, and heard the amniotic sac literally explode under me (remember what I thought was butt? It was a bulging bag of waters). It was the coolest sound and feeling! I kept asking Kris if his head was out yet, and he kept saying no, no, just a little more. The contraction stopped with him out to his nose, and I said oh NO, I cannot sit here like this. The "ring of fire" had been burning for way too long! So I gave another big push and he was born to his neck, which (as you can see from pictures of his wide neck) was hardly any relief. Thankfully, another contraction started just then and I pushed the rest of his body out. It was huge... it didn't just slide out like most babies! Feeling his body rotate to the side for his shoulders was a totally bizarre and amazing moment... being consciously aware of every single detail of the delivery was absolutely miraculous. I knew what was happening at every second, and knew exactly what to do.
I sat back right away and held him, just staring at him for a few minutes.
POST-BIRTH
Of course... I wasn't sitting on the liner. I was half-on, half-off, so when the placenta seperated (indicated by a gush of blood), it went all over the white carpet... in our rental... but anyway, I handed Mikah to Kris, and managed to deliver the placenta ON the liner, but of course, not in the huge blue dish that we'd bought specifically for the purpose. I did inspect it to make sure it was all there (it was) and then it was put aside until we needed it again.
The first thing I wanted to do after getting some snuggling in was rinse off in the shower. I knew I was bleeding a lot, and I managed to make our entire bedroom carpet between the bed & bath, as well as our entire bathroom, look like a bad horror movie. I felt a little faint in the shower and had Kris get me a few large chunks of placenta, which seemed to help a good bit. I went to bed, nursed Mikah for a few minutes until he didn't want to anymore, and then Kris took him to meet the family that had stopped to visit. I woke up about 2 hours later and had to pee, but when I got up I lost a TON of blood (like, a scary bit). I managed to walk to the bathroom before having to lie down on the tile and have Kris get me some Shepherd's Purse (to contract the uterus and stop hemorrhage) and Rescue Remedy (to calm me the heck down--it worked too). After a few minutes I felt decent again, and was able to pee and get back in bed. The next time I had to get up was just fine and I haven't had any issues since. I really think it was because Mikah didn't nurse much the first hour, and also because I took a very warm shower right after he was born. Also, I had taken some ContractEase that first hour after the birth for the afterpains, which obviously doesn't help with the uterus clamping down. But after those first few hours I was just fine, Mikah was nursing more often, and Kris made me a placenta smoothie (which was very good and tasted nothing like placenta).
STATS:
Mikah Donovan Wallace
8lbs 4oz
19.5 inches long
13.5 inch head circumference
14.25 inch chest... told you it hurt!
Born July 10, 2008 at 4:20am, into Daddy's hands. We asked for a God-assisted, unhindered homebirth, and we got it!
He's a short, chubby baby... total opposite of Jake, who was super-long and skinny!
KRIS-my husband
DAWN-my mother-in-law
JAKE-my 21-month old son
KAILEY-my sister-in-law, the photographer
Tuesday evening: The Family and I went to eat at a local rich Italian restaurant, Villa Gargano. We had eaten there when I was pregnant with Jake and my water had broken 23 hours later. We were hoping for the same effect.
Wednesday:
In the afternoon, I started having more contractions. They were pretty irregular, spaced out, but a little painful. I'd had plenty of these the past few days but was wanting it to be regular. I was ready. I got a tip from a mama online from a message board that Target always gave her strong, painful contractions... so I decided, what the heck, I'll try it out.
EARLY LABOR
Jake and I were at Target from 6:15 to around 7, where I had several strong contractions. We played with all the car seats in the kids' section and then I put him in a carrier and walked around a little more. When I got too tired, I went home.
When I got home, Kris managed the miracle of getting Jake to sleep... but couldn't put him down. So, at about 8:30, when I realized Kris hadn't eaten since Gargano's (6pm the night before!), I went to Wendy's for him. I had one contraction in the drive-thru and one in the car when I was almost home. I also had one as I was walking in the door. They were about 4 minutes apart at this point, but I was still pretty upbeat between them, folding laundry and printing Bible verses to help me focus.
Kris's mom (Dawn) came at about 10:30 so Kris could go to work, and after he left, Jake woke up. I tried rocking him back to sleep, with several very painful contractions (back labor? In a recliner?), but wasn't successful. Eventually he went to Dawn and I was able to sneak out and get in the tub.
ACTIVE LABOR
Thursday:
I was in the tub alone (with iTunes) from about 11:45 to 2, when Kris came home from work. Once he arrived, I was able to stop worrying about calling him too late and things got pretty serious. I stayed in the tub a little longer, maybe until 3, when I had to get out and go to the bathroom. Those toilet contractions were killer, but when I was done, I absolutely did NOT want to get back in the tub. Here I was doing everything to plan for a water birth, and the thought repulsed me.
So we moved to the bedroom and I sat on a towel, on the birth ball, burying my face in the bed. After awhile, I couldn't do this anymore either. I was tired, and wanted to lie down and go to sleep (I know...). So I piled up a ton of pillows and laid into them with contractions.
TRANSITION
They were coming every 2 minutes or less at this point, and while I wasn't panicking, I was in a freakish amount of pain during contractions. My low, deep moaning was getting higher-pitched at the peaks of contractions, and I felt like I was losing control. I made the same pillow-pile up on my bed and got up there, since my knees were hurting from the floor. Kris was still providing great lower-back counter pressure, and awesome back massage between contractions (to make up for all the massages I gave him while *I* was pregnant!).
This is the point in labor that I printed all those Bible verses for, but I just couldn't think of any of them. The only thing I could think about was the header on a blog I read frequently: "Run with endurance the race that lies before us." Hebrews 12:1. That's exactly how it felt, and it was absolutely perfect.
I think I passed full dilation on the bed, but I lost my "primal instinct" for a few minutes and tried to think too much. I had felt the baby moving down during contractions (and my belly was visibly lower) so I tried to check my cervix to see if I could feel a head (and maybe some cervical lip that would mean I needed to wait on pushing). Well, what I felt didn't feel anything like head. It felt very squishy and smooth, like a butt. I thought to myself, he was head down early in labor, did he turn in the tub? And I immediately stopped "test-pushing" because I remembered that you needed to make SURE you're fully dilated if you deliver a breech. But after awhile I couldn't help it anymore. I was screaming and roaring VERY loudly through contractions, and I HAD to push. I had to do SOMEthing. I was hoping for that awesome relief that everyone talks about, but I didn't feel it. In fact, pushing was much more intense and painful than with Jake's delivery. Again, my over-analyzing brain said it was because baby was breech, which would be harder work (yes, I was still thinking 100% coherently the entire time).
During one push, I actually stopped scream/roaring long enough to do a good, silent, focused push. And it felt very good and very right, so I immediately yelled to Kris to lay down the sheet (the other shower curtain, on the floor). I pushed really hard on the bed again and felt water go everywhere. I wasn't sure whether it was urine or amniotic fludid (even in labor, haha!) but the mattress was protected, so whatever (in hindsight, you'll see, it was urine. I'd had to pee but could NOT get up and go... heck, I guess that's one way to sterilize an area, right? LOL).
DELIVERY
As soon as the liner was down, I crawled onto the floor and got on my hands and knees, with my head on the mattress. I pushed like crazy for 3 contractions, each time yelling at Kris to push on my back, and to hold the hot wash cloth on my perineum (to avoid tears). After a few pushes, I could feel him crowning, and heard the amniotic sac literally explode under me (remember what I thought was butt? It was a bulging bag of waters). It was the coolest sound and feeling! I kept asking Kris if his head was out yet, and he kept saying no, no, just a little more. The contraction stopped with him out to his nose, and I said oh NO, I cannot sit here like this. The "ring of fire" had been burning for way too long! So I gave another big push and he was born to his neck, which (as you can see from pictures of his wide neck) was hardly any relief. Thankfully, another contraction started just then and I pushed the rest of his body out. It was huge... it didn't just slide out like most babies! Feeling his body rotate to the side for his shoulders was a totally bizarre and amazing moment... being consciously aware of every single detail of the delivery was absolutely miraculous. I knew what was happening at every second, and knew exactly what to do.
I sat back right away and held him, just staring at him for a few minutes.
POST-BIRTH
Of course... I wasn't sitting on the liner. I was half-on, half-off, so when the placenta seperated (indicated by a gush of blood), it went all over the white carpet... in our rental... but anyway, I handed Mikah to Kris, and managed to deliver the placenta ON the liner, but of course, not in the huge blue dish that we'd bought specifically for the purpose. I did inspect it to make sure it was all there (it was) and then it was put aside until we needed it again.
The first thing I wanted to do after getting some snuggling in was rinse off in the shower. I knew I was bleeding a lot, and I managed to make our entire bedroom carpet between the bed & bath, as well as our entire bathroom, look like a bad horror movie. I felt a little faint in the shower and had Kris get me a few large chunks of placenta, which seemed to help a good bit. I went to bed, nursed Mikah for a few minutes until he didn't want to anymore, and then Kris took him to meet the family that had stopped to visit. I woke up about 2 hours later and had to pee, but when I got up I lost a TON of blood (like, a scary bit). I managed to walk to the bathroom before having to lie down on the tile and have Kris get me some Shepherd's Purse (to contract the uterus and stop hemorrhage) and Rescue Remedy (to calm me the heck down--it worked too). After a few minutes I felt decent again, and was able to pee and get back in bed. The next time I had to get up was just fine and I haven't had any issues since. I really think it was because Mikah didn't nurse much the first hour, and also because I took a very warm shower right after he was born. Also, I had taken some ContractEase that first hour after the birth for the afterpains, which obviously doesn't help with the uterus clamping down. But after those first few hours I was just fine, Mikah was nursing more often, and Kris made me a placenta smoothie (which was very good and tasted nothing like placenta).
STATS:
Mikah Donovan Wallace
8lbs 4oz
19.5 inches long
13.5 inch head circumference
14.25 inch chest... told you it hurt!
Born July 10, 2008 at 4:20am, into Daddy's hands. We asked for a God-assisted, unhindered homebirth, and we got it!
He's a short, chubby baby... total opposite of Jake, who was super-long and skinny!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Early labor, possibly
I know this is my "birth blog", but labor updates will be at:
http://hatchitatchi.blogspot.com/
because it has more readers. See there for updates until there's a new entry over this one :)
http://hatchitatchi.blogspot.com/
because it has more readers. See there for updates until there's a new entry over this one :)
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Tonight we went to Gargano's... it's this super-rich Italian place that is absolute gastrointestinal hell but totally worth it. Last time I went was when I was pregnant with Boo, and my water broke just at 24 hours later and I had him the next day. I'm obviously hoping for a similar effect this time, not to mention the manicotti was excellent.
Anyway, on the ride home I was looking at Boo, and looking at the empty car seat in the center of the back seat (I sit back there with him still, except now I'm further away than I used to be. I can't sit in the middle because it's a lap-only belt). And I realized that, any day now, it would actually be used for something other than holding sippy cups and baby carriers (and I'd have to find somewhere else to stash those things!). Boo likes to take the adjuster strap (that tightens the harness) of 2e's seat and play "cell phone" with it. It's super cute. And in a few days, that strap will be just a little bit shorter because there will be something actually IN the harness. It seems so unreal.
Sometimes I think I'm going to be pregnant forever, and that I'm not really having a baby, I'm just growing a belly and it's going to shrink back down like a swollen ankle or something. I know, weird. It just doesn't seem real at all yet. I have an entire stash of newborn diapers, a collection of cute baby carriers (although I DO still use them for Boo... yes, even at 40 weeks pregnant...), another car seat in the car, all the birth stuff... and still it doesn't seem like it's ever going to happen. It seems like home decor (or car decor!). But every now and then I'll look at something and just KNOW that it's real, and I'll have that "awww" moment.
Tonight was one of those moments. We were riding home, and I was feeling the inside of the baby's car seat, which is so soft that I want one too, darn it! I was sitting there picturing what it would look like with a new baby in it... and what the new baby would look like. I have no idea! I think 2e will be a little bigger than Boo was, probably a little bit of dark hair, and bright blue-gray eyes like Boo used to have. A big pudgy face and super-long fingers and toes. But I don't know! The suspense is killing me!
I keep wondering how I'll go into labor, too. I mean, contractions obviously mean nothing. Maybe my water will break first again, although I'm actually hoping it won't because it's just so much messier and makes contractions that much harder, hehe. For the past few evenings, for a few hours every evening, I've basically been at that place that makes most people wonder, "Should I go to the hospital yet?" But I know it's not labor-labor. I can still breathe, talk, and type through all contractions, and more importantly, I can still smile and joke between them. It's not quite as bad as true prodromal labor, but it is just enough to piss me off!!
Anyway, someone send 2e the message through morse code... we're ready. Yeah, the Nekkie Blankie isn't here yet, but we can do a few days without if we need to. Everything else is here and ready. It's safe, it's peaceful, Mama promises to put a note on the door telling everyone to stay OUT. The water is warm, the milk is good, and the love is already growing. So come on out!!
Warm blankies and carriers to hold you close
This is Boo sitting on you!! If you come out, you can sit on him instead!
Daddy and Boo are willing to share the family bed with you!!
Love,
Mama to 1.8 :)
Anyway, on the ride home I was looking at Boo, and looking at the empty car seat in the center of the back seat (I sit back there with him still, except now I'm further away than I used to be. I can't sit in the middle because it's a lap-only belt). And I realized that, any day now, it would actually be used for something other than holding sippy cups and baby carriers (and I'd have to find somewhere else to stash those things!). Boo likes to take the adjuster strap (that tightens the harness) of 2e's seat and play "cell phone" with it. It's super cute. And in a few days, that strap will be just a little bit shorter because there will be something actually IN the harness. It seems so unreal.
Sometimes I think I'm going to be pregnant forever, and that I'm not really having a baby, I'm just growing a belly and it's going to shrink back down like a swollen ankle or something. I know, weird. It just doesn't seem real at all yet. I have an entire stash of newborn diapers, a collection of cute baby carriers (although I DO still use them for Boo... yes, even at 40 weeks pregnant...), another car seat in the car, all the birth stuff... and still it doesn't seem like it's ever going to happen. It seems like home decor (or car decor!). But every now and then I'll look at something and just KNOW that it's real, and I'll have that "awww" moment.
Tonight was one of those moments. We were riding home, and I was feeling the inside of the baby's car seat, which is so soft that I want one too, darn it! I was sitting there picturing what it would look like with a new baby in it... and what the new baby would look like. I have no idea! I think 2e will be a little bigger than Boo was, probably a little bit of dark hair, and bright blue-gray eyes like Boo used to have. A big pudgy face and super-long fingers and toes. But I don't know! The suspense is killing me!
I keep wondering how I'll go into labor, too. I mean, contractions obviously mean nothing. Maybe my water will break first again, although I'm actually hoping it won't because it's just so much messier and makes contractions that much harder, hehe. For the past few evenings, for a few hours every evening, I've basically been at that place that makes most people wonder, "Should I go to the hospital yet?" But I know it's not labor-labor. I can still breathe, talk, and type through all contractions, and more importantly, I can still smile and joke between them. It's not quite as bad as true prodromal labor, but it is just enough to piss me off!!
Anyway, someone send 2e the message through morse code... we're ready. Yeah, the Nekkie Blankie isn't here yet, but we can do a few days without if we need to. Everything else is here and ready. It's safe, it's peaceful, Mama promises to put a note on the door telling everyone to stay OUT. The water is warm, the milk is good, and the love is already growing. So come on out!!
Boudreaux already loves you, baby!
Warm blankies and carriers to hold you close
Everything's ready! Carriers, changing area, cloth diapers...
See that nice plush seat in the center? That's YOURS! Come use it!
This is Boo sitting on you!! If you come out, you can sit on him instead!
Daddy and Boo are willing to share the family bed with you!!
Love,
Mama to 1.8 :)
Monday, July 7, 2008
Bible verses
Joshua 1:9:
Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
2 Timothy 1:7:
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Philippians 4:13:
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
2 Corinthians 5:7:
(For we walk by faith, not by sight:)
Philippians 1:6:
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:
Psalm 56:3:
What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.
Psalm 46:10:
Be still, and know that I am God
Psalm 139:13-14:
For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
Proverbs 3:5:
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
Isaiah 66:9:
Shall I bring to the birth, and not cause to bring forth? saith the LORD: shall I cause to bring forth, and shut the womb? saith thy God.
Micah 6:8:
He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the LORD require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?
Jeremiah 29:11:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Luke 5:31:
And Jesus answering said unto them, They that are whole need not a physician; but they that are sick.
Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
2 Timothy 1:7:
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Philippians 4:13:
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
2 Corinthians 5:7:
(For we walk by faith, not by sight:)
Philippians 1:6:
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:
Psalm 56:3:
What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.
Psalm 46:10:
Be still, and know that I am God
Psalm 139:13-14:
For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
Proverbs 3:5:
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
Isaiah 66:9:
Shall I bring to the birth, and not cause to bring forth? saith the LORD: shall I cause to bring forth, and shut the womb? saith thy God.
Micah 6:8:
He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the LORD require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?
Jeremiah 29:11:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Luke 5:31:
And Jesus answering said unto them, They that are whole need not a physician; but they that are sick.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
YES, I'm still pregnant! (Venting)
I can't believe how many times I've been asked that... any changes? Still pregnant? No contractions? How's your cervix? What is the texture of the stuff coming out of your vagina?
Um, do I know your NAME? I know I go to church with you and all... but don't you find it a little unusual that you're asking me about something that's 6 to 9 inches up inside my vagina?
I don't mind a lot, really. I know that pregnancy = no dignity or privacy, and it just comes with the territory. However, it's complicated to explain that no one is checking my cervix... even if I were seeing an OB, no one would be checking my cervix. Because the state of my cervix has no relation to whether the baby will come in 4 hours or 4 weeks. It's just an excuse for a doctor to put his hands in a place that's reserved for me and my husband. And introduce bacteria. Thanks! But rather than explain that, I just mumble something awkward about how the baby will come when God thinks it's time. And no, I haven't lost my mucous plug, thanks. Do you want me to take a picture when I do?
To answer the contraction question, YES, I've been having contractions. Which, just like the cervical dilation, means absolutely nothing. When they are excruciatingly painful and 3 minutes apart, for several hours, I may be in labor. Of course, I may be in prodromal labor, which does NOT result in a baby! So even THAT isn't a guarantee. So unless I'm crowning, please assume that I am not in labor. I've even had time-able contractions for an entire evening, but guess what? No baby.
I understand that there are a million "signs" that labor is quickly approaching, or that it will be "in the next day or two, I'm sure"... because obviously, it wasn't "in the next day or two". No sign is a surefire sign that the baby is coming, except a baby that's crowning. If you can't see the top of the baby's head, don't ask me if it's time yet. If you CAN see the top of the baby's head, don't ask me if it's time, because I'll probably call you a slew of names starting with "idiot" and ending with "blind moron", and then tell you to shut up so I can push. :) I'm crampy, I'm contracting, I'm sore, my house is spotless (even places you can't see), the baby is super low, lots of pressure, and increased cervical fluid. Been that way for 2 weeks, even though all those signs are supposed to mean "baby is coming soon!".
I'm only 39 weeks and 3 days along. That's not far. The average white woman delivers at 41 weeks 3 days. That's TWO more weeks. And that means that, for every induction-happy doctor that's having women deliver at 37, 38, and 39 weeks, there must be billions delivering at 41 to 43 weeks. I may very well be one of those! Boo came at almost 39 weeks because my water broke, probably due to less-than-optimal nutrition. I've been much better this time around, so it could very well be as late as AUGUST 7TH. That's when I'll be 44 weeks. And THAT is when I'll consider medical induction, unless I feel something is "off" before then. No, I won't consider even natural induction methods before 42 weeks.
Would I love for the baby to come sometime this week (other than tonight)? Yes, absolutely. Would I be heart broken if baby didn't come until the end of July? Nope! Not at all! Some babies just need to bake longer than others, and that's fine. Will I get annoyed with all the questions at some point? I'm sure. I was a little annoyed today because I had a completely crappy weekend and was in a bad mood from the get-go, but I feel pretty good now. When I need to, I'll turn off my cell phone with a voice mail saying that I'm still pregnant, and I'll put a note on the door.
So, yes, the short answer is that I am STILL pregnant, and yes, I intentionally changed all my tickers to ones that actually go past 40 weeks (the one I had says "I should be out by now!" once you hit 40weeks), because once I get to 40 weeks (Thursday) I'll be too annoyed to change them.
And no, I'm not having the baby on anyone else's timetable. I don't care about your hair appointment, your pedicure, your mom's sister's aunt's birthday, your vacation, your weekend plans, or your personal preference. My baby doesn't either. I'd like another single-digit birthday but I'm not holding my breath. I'd like it to be after tonight (so Kris doesn't lose his holiday pay for the 4th) but if it needs to be tonight, so be it. I'm not in charge. And neither is your mom's sister's aunt.
Anyway, I'm about to have a snack and go to bed. I think I've decided that I'll text a few people when I'm in early labor, mainly those that I don't know in real life, and just text everyone else as soon as the baby arrives. I just want to labor in peace, without worrying about who's going to "drop by" to "support" me in early labor, and just "stay until the midwife gets there". Or just stay the whole time but go to Wal-mart for the birth. No, absolutely not. Way too much pressure on me. There will be NO MORE THAN me, Kris, and probably his mom in my house when I'm in labor, possibly his sister if Boo needs an extra person. And I'm sorry if that hurts everyone's feelings, but it's MY day, not yours. We'll call when there's a baby. Scratch that. We'll call after we're settled in with the baby, and placenta has been delivered and blended and everything is cleaned up. Because personally, I don't want any visitors at all period right afterward. But I'll settle for visitors about 2 hours after the birth since I know everyone's feelings will be hurt if I try and do something crazy like bond with my new baby alone for a day or two and let Boo adjust peacefully. Just don't expect me to be wearing clothes, or to hold the baby, at least until my milk comes in fully (so... day 5-7?).
Anyway, glad to get all that off my chest! There's more, but I'm hungry and tired.
Um, do I know your NAME? I know I go to church with you and all... but don't you find it a little unusual that you're asking me about something that's 6 to 9 inches up inside my vagina?
I don't mind a lot, really. I know that pregnancy = no dignity or privacy, and it just comes with the territory. However, it's complicated to explain that no one is checking my cervix... even if I were seeing an OB, no one would be checking my cervix. Because the state of my cervix has no relation to whether the baby will come in 4 hours or 4 weeks. It's just an excuse for a doctor to put his hands in a place that's reserved for me and my husband. And introduce bacteria. Thanks! But rather than explain that, I just mumble something awkward about how the baby will come when God thinks it's time. And no, I haven't lost my mucous plug, thanks. Do you want me to take a picture when I do?
To answer the contraction question, YES, I've been having contractions. Which, just like the cervical dilation, means absolutely nothing. When they are excruciatingly painful and 3 minutes apart, for several hours, I may be in labor. Of course, I may be in prodromal labor, which does NOT result in a baby! So even THAT isn't a guarantee. So unless I'm crowning, please assume that I am not in labor. I've even had time-able contractions for an entire evening, but guess what? No baby.
I understand that there are a million "signs" that labor is quickly approaching, or that it will be "in the next day or two, I'm sure"... because obviously, it wasn't "in the next day or two". No sign is a surefire sign that the baby is coming, except a baby that's crowning. If you can't see the top of the baby's head, don't ask me if it's time yet. If you CAN see the top of the baby's head, don't ask me if it's time, because I'll probably call you a slew of names starting with "idiot" and ending with "blind moron", and then tell you to shut up so I can push. :) I'm crampy, I'm contracting, I'm sore, my house is spotless (even places you can't see), the baby is super low, lots of pressure, and increased cervical fluid. Been that way for 2 weeks, even though all those signs are supposed to mean "baby is coming soon!".
I'm only 39 weeks and 3 days along. That's not far. The average white woman delivers at 41 weeks 3 days. That's TWO more weeks. And that means that, for every induction-happy doctor that's having women deliver at 37, 38, and 39 weeks, there must be billions delivering at 41 to 43 weeks. I may very well be one of those! Boo came at almost 39 weeks because my water broke, probably due to less-than-optimal nutrition. I've been much better this time around, so it could very well be as late as AUGUST 7TH. That's when I'll be 44 weeks. And THAT is when I'll consider medical induction, unless I feel something is "off" before then. No, I won't consider even natural induction methods before 42 weeks.
Would I love for the baby to come sometime this week (other than tonight)? Yes, absolutely. Would I be heart broken if baby didn't come until the end of July? Nope! Not at all! Some babies just need to bake longer than others, and that's fine. Will I get annoyed with all the questions at some point? I'm sure. I was a little annoyed today because I had a completely crappy weekend and was in a bad mood from the get-go, but I feel pretty good now. When I need to, I'll turn off my cell phone with a voice mail saying that I'm still pregnant, and I'll put a note on the door.
So, yes, the short answer is that I am STILL pregnant, and yes, I intentionally changed all my tickers to ones that actually go past 40 weeks (the one I had says "I should be out by now!" once you hit 40weeks), because once I get to 40 weeks (Thursday) I'll be too annoyed to change them.
And no, I'm not having the baby on anyone else's timetable. I don't care about your hair appointment, your pedicure, your mom's sister's aunt's birthday, your vacation, your weekend plans, or your personal preference. My baby doesn't either. I'd like another single-digit birthday but I'm not holding my breath. I'd like it to be after tonight (so Kris doesn't lose his holiday pay for the 4th) but if it needs to be tonight, so be it. I'm not in charge. And neither is your mom's sister's aunt.
Anyway, I'm about to have a snack and go to bed. I think I've decided that I'll text a few people when I'm in early labor, mainly those that I don't know in real life, and just text everyone else as soon as the baby arrives. I just want to labor in peace, without worrying about who's going to "drop by" to "support" me in early labor, and just "stay until the midwife gets there". Or just stay the whole time but go to Wal-mart for the birth. No, absolutely not. Way too much pressure on me. There will be NO MORE THAN me, Kris, and probably his mom in my house when I'm in labor, possibly his sister if Boo needs an extra person. And I'm sorry if that hurts everyone's feelings, but it's MY day, not yours. We'll call when there's a baby. Scratch that. We'll call after we're settled in with the baby, and placenta has been delivered and blended and everything is cleaned up. Because personally, I don't want any visitors at all period right afterward. But I'll settle for visitors about 2 hours after the birth since I know everyone's feelings will be hurt if I try and do something crazy like bond with my new baby alone for a day or two and let Boo adjust peacefully. Just don't expect me to be wearing clothes, or to hold the baby, at least until my milk comes in fully (so... day 5-7?).
Anyway, glad to get all that off my chest! There's more, but I'm hungry and tired.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Don't laugh... my labor play list (long)
Fast Labor Songs
Fight for all the wrong reasons-Nickelback
Romeo & Juliet-Indigo Girls
Open skies-David Crowder Band
Tangled up in blue-Indio Girls
Say Anything (acoustic)-Aimee Mann
Reinventing your exit-Underoath
Jersey-Mayday Parade
Shut me out-Kutless
Building a mystery-Sarah Mclachlan
Never alone-Barlow Girl
How Come-Ray Lamontagne
Stupid-Sarah McLachlan
Nice to know you-Incubus
What if-Creed
Slide-Ani Difranco
Mr. Jones-Counting Crows
Bring me some water-Joan Osborne/Melissa Etheridge
Big Mistake-Natalie Imbruglia
Strong enough-Sheryl Crow & Dixie Chicks
All around me-Flyleaf
Magic Carpet ride-Steppenwolf
I believe in you (live)-Amanda Marshall
Your mistake-Sister Hazel
Jeremiah was a bullfrog-CCR
Got to stop thinkin' bout that-Edwin McCain
Make me stay-Ani Difranco
Six feet from the edge-Creed
Love you madly-cake
Again I go unnoticed-Dashboard confessional
What's up-4 non blondes
Deny-Default
Gravity-Shawn McDonald
Sorrow-Flyleaf
You're a god-Vertical Horizon
Follow you home-Nickelback
Warning-Incubus
Unchanging one-Todd Agnew
Take my life-Jeremy Camp
Let it Rain-Amanda Marshall
Wish you were here-Incubus
Sugar, we're goin' down-Fallout Boy
That Summer-Garth Brooks
Voice of truth-Casting crowns
Touched-Vast
We fall down-Kutless
Heavy-Collective Soul
O Praise Him-David Crowder Band
Buildings and Bridges-Ani Difranco
Control-Puddle of Mudd
In the Air tonight-Non point
Dice-Finley Quaye (OC soundtrack)
Not Angry Anymore-Ani Difranco
The End of Heartache-Killswitch Engage
Posession-Sarah McLachlan
Candy-Seventh Day Slumber
Sunday Morning-Ani Difranco
Going the Distance-Cake
My Generation-Starfield
When darkness falls-Killswitch Engage
out of range (living in clip version)-Ani Difranco
Deep Inside (acoustic)-Incubus
Shackled-Vertical Horizon
December-Collective Soul
What if His people prayed-Casting Crowns
Bubbly-Colbie Calliat
The Warmth-Incubus
Faceless man-creed
Jukebox-Ani Difranco
I'm no Heroine-Ani Difranco
Rockstar-Nickelback
I saw the light (live)-David Crowder Band
Draw me Close-kutless
Walk on the ocean (live)-John Mayer
Here for now-Ani Difranco
RockPaperScissors(SMS/SML version)-Ani Difranco
See the sky again-Edwin McCain
Take my hand-shawn McDonald
Napoleon (living in clip version)-Ani Difranco
Nothing Could Come Between Us-Theory of a Deadman
It's Dangerous Business Walking out your front door-Underoath
Smoothie Song-Nickel Creek
Animals-Nickelback
Be Lifted (live)-David Crowder Band
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Come Close-Edie Carey
Gravel (living in clip version)-Ani Difranco
Broken-Seether/Amy Lee
Black Birth-Sarah McLachlan
Sweet Child O' Mine-Sheryl Crow
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Slow Labor Songs
Black (live Pearl Jam Cover)-Aaron Lewis of Staind
Giving In-Adema
High on Sunday 51-Aimee Mann
Down in a hole-Alice in Chains
Why-Ciara haskett (cover)
While you were sleeping-casting crowns
Home-Sheryl Crow
My Immortal-Evanescence
It's been awhile-Staind
Walk by faith-Jeremy Camp
Dilate-Ani Difranco
Ramblin' Round-Indigo girls & Ani Difranco
Blurry-Puddle of Mudd
Subdivision-Ani Difranco
Last Song-Theory of a Deadman
Savin' me-Nickelback
Word of God Speak-Kutless
There-for-you--Flyleaf
Grey-Ani Difranco
45 (acoustic)-Shinedown
Move on-Jet
Set me Free-Casting Crowns
Burning Bright-Shinedown
Mother-Tori Amos
Coming Home-Dallas Green
My Struggle-Seventh Day Slumber
The world I know-Collective Soul
Desire-Ryan Adams
Name-Goo Goo Dolls
This far gone-Jennifer Hanson
So I thought-Flyleaf
Far Away-nickelback
Ireland-Garth Brooks
East to west-casting Crowns
I lift up my eyes-Katie Giguere
Giving In-Adema
Fall or Fly-Edie Carey
Who am I-Casting Crowns
Set me free-casting crowns
Reckoning-Ani Difranco
Mexico (live)-Incubus
Listen to your heart-DHT
Jolene-Ray Lamontagne
Shelter-Ray Lamontagne
Torn-Creed
To Live is to Die-Metallica
Hell Yeah-Ani Difranco
Does Anybody Hear Her-Casting Crowns
If you're reading this-Tim McGraw
Wild as the Wind-Garth Brooks & Trisha Yearwood
Seven Bridges Road-Eagles
Carry Me Jesus-Katie Giguere
Here I Go Again-Casting Crowns
Miserable at best-Mayday Parade
Just by your Mercy-Katie Giguere
Piano and I-Alicia Keys
Black and Blue-Counting Crows
You and Me-Lifehouse
In this Life-Collin Raye
So far away-Staind
You Save Me-Kenny Chesney
Caught By the River-Doves (OC Soundtrack)
The Red Strokes-Garth Brooks
When it's done it's done-Bruce Cockburn
You Had Time-Ani Difranco
Small World-Ani Difranco
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Tear Drop-Massive Attack (House MD theme)
Broken Wings-Flyleaf
More than a Memory-Garth Brooks
Ghost-Indio Girls
The Difficult Kind (live)-Sheryl Crow, Sarah McLachlan
hold On-Sarah McLachlan
Simple Man (live)-Shinedown
I miss You-Incubus
Everything Changes-Staind
Not a Pretty Girl (SMS/SML version)-Ani Difranco
Only you-David Crowder Band
Done Wrong-Ani Difranco
Butterfly Kisses-Collin Raye
Yahweh-Shawn McDonald
Arms of Love-Kutless
Rise up, Shepherd-David Huntsinger
Fear-Sarah McLachlan
Honey and the Moon-Arthur...? (OC soundtrack)
Sometimes (i wish)-Dallas Green
Punish Me-Edwin McCain
Crash and Burn-Sheryl Crow
Good Enough-Sarah McLachlan
Drive (orchestral live)-Incubus
Capri-Colbie Calliat
Silent all these years-Tori Amos
Hey Jupiter-Tori Amos
Me and Emily-Rachel Proctor
My Jesus-Todd Agnew
Hello I'm in Delaware-Dallas Green
Better than Chocolate-Sarah McLachlan
China-Tori Amos
Ain't That the Way-Ani Difranco
River-Sarah McLachlan
My Own Prison-Creed
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Gone without goodbye-Brian Littrell
Tori (acoustic)-John Mayer & Nickel Creek
Perfectly Done-Shawn McDonald
This Woman's Work-Kate Bush
Homesick-Mercy Me
Little Earthquakes-Tori Amos
Jealous of the Moon-Nickel Creek
Sweet Southern Comfort-Buddy Jewell
Marry Me-Amanda Marshall
Hannah-Ray Lamontagne
I Like You (Farr's Song)-Edie Carey
Fixing Her Hair-Ani Difranco
Violently-Edie Carey
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Songs for Transition/Birth
In Christ Alone-Adrienne Liesching
Deliver Me-David Crowder Band
Hold On-Shawn McDonald
Amazing Love-Rebecca St. James
A Beautiful Collision-David Crowder Band
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Amazing Grace-Jars of Clay
God of Wonders-?
Only Alive-Jars of Clay
If I could just sit with you awhile-Todd Agnew
Beautiful-Shawn McDonald
Take you back-Jeremy Camp
Wholly yours (B-variant)-David Crowder Band
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
It is well with my soul-Katie Giguere
Simply Nothing-Shawn McDonald
I love you-Sarah McLachlan
And now my lifesong sings-Casting Crowns
Wish-Brian Littrell
I wait for the Lord-Jeremy Camp
Mirror-Barlow Girl
Dare you to move-Switchfoot
Redeemer-Nicole C. Mullen
Right here-Jeremy camp
Praise you in the storm-Casting Crowns
Your love is extravagant-Casting Crowns
Lullaby-Creed
Lion of Judah-Katie Giguere
All Creatures-David Crowder Band
Fight for all the wrong reasons-Nickelback
Romeo & Juliet-Indigo Girls
Open skies-David Crowder Band
Tangled up in blue-Indio Girls
Say Anything (acoustic)-Aimee Mann
Reinventing your exit-Underoath
Jersey-Mayday Parade
Shut me out-Kutless
Building a mystery-Sarah Mclachlan
Never alone-Barlow Girl
How Come-Ray Lamontagne
Stupid-Sarah McLachlan
Nice to know you-Incubus
What if-Creed
Slide-Ani Difranco
Mr. Jones-Counting Crows
Bring me some water-Joan Osborne/Melissa Etheridge
Big Mistake-Natalie Imbruglia
Strong enough-Sheryl Crow & Dixie Chicks
All around me-Flyleaf
Magic Carpet ride-Steppenwolf
I believe in you (live)-Amanda Marshall
Your mistake-Sister Hazel
Jeremiah was a bullfrog-CCR
Got to stop thinkin' bout that-Edwin McCain
Make me stay-Ani Difranco
Six feet from the edge-Creed
Love you madly-cake
Again I go unnoticed-Dashboard confessional
What's up-4 non blondes
Deny-Default
Gravity-Shawn McDonald
Sorrow-Flyleaf
You're a god-Vertical Horizon
Follow you home-Nickelback
Warning-Incubus
Unchanging one-Todd Agnew
Take my life-Jeremy Camp
Let it Rain-Amanda Marshall
Wish you were here-Incubus
Sugar, we're goin' down-Fallout Boy
That Summer-Garth Brooks
Voice of truth-Casting crowns
Touched-Vast
We fall down-Kutless
Heavy-Collective Soul
O Praise Him-David Crowder Band
Buildings and Bridges-Ani Difranco
Control-Puddle of Mudd
In the Air tonight-Non point
Dice-Finley Quaye (OC soundtrack)
Not Angry Anymore-Ani Difranco
The End of Heartache-Killswitch Engage
Posession-Sarah McLachlan
Candy-Seventh Day Slumber
Sunday Morning-Ani Difranco
Going the Distance-Cake
My Generation-Starfield
When darkness falls-Killswitch Engage
out of range (living in clip version)-Ani Difranco
Deep Inside (acoustic)-Incubus
Shackled-Vertical Horizon
December-Collective Soul
What if His people prayed-Casting Crowns
Bubbly-Colbie Calliat
The Warmth-Incubus
Faceless man-creed
Jukebox-Ani Difranco
I'm no Heroine-Ani Difranco
Rockstar-Nickelback
I saw the light (live)-David Crowder Band
Draw me Close-kutless
Walk on the ocean (live)-John Mayer
Here for now-Ani Difranco
RockPaperScissors(SMS/SML version)-Ani Difranco
See the sky again-Edwin McCain
Take my hand-shawn McDonald
Napoleon (living in clip version)-Ani Difranco
Nothing Could Come Between Us-Theory of a Deadman
It's Dangerous Business Walking out your front door-Underoath
Smoothie Song-Nickel Creek
Animals-Nickelback
Be Lifted (live)-David Crowder Band
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Come Close-Edie Carey
Gravel (living in clip version)-Ani Difranco
Broken-Seether/Amy Lee
Black Birth-Sarah McLachlan
Sweet Child O' Mine-Sheryl Crow
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Slow Labor Songs
Black (live Pearl Jam Cover)-Aaron Lewis of Staind
Giving In-Adema
High on Sunday 51-Aimee Mann
Down in a hole-Alice in Chains
Why-Ciara haskett (cover)
While you were sleeping-casting crowns
Home-Sheryl Crow
My Immortal-Evanescence
It's been awhile-Staind
Walk by faith-Jeremy Camp
Dilate-Ani Difranco
Ramblin' Round-Indigo girls & Ani Difranco
Blurry-Puddle of Mudd
Subdivision-Ani Difranco
Last Song-Theory of a Deadman
Savin' me-Nickelback
Word of God Speak-Kutless
There-for-you--Flyleaf
Grey-Ani Difranco
45 (acoustic)-Shinedown
Move on-Jet
Set me Free-Casting Crowns
Burning Bright-Shinedown
Mother-Tori Amos
Coming Home-Dallas Green
My Struggle-Seventh Day Slumber
The world I know-Collective Soul
Desire-Ryan Adams
Name-Goo Goo Dolls
This far gone-Jennifer Hanson
So I thought-Flyleaf
Far Away-nickelback
Ireland-Garth Brooks
East to west-casting Crowns
I lift up my eyes-Katie Giguere
Giving In-Adema
Fall or Fly-Edie Carey
Who am I-Casting Crowns
Set me free-casting crowns
Reckoning-Ani Difranco
Mexico (live)-Incubus
Listen to your heart-DHT
Jolene-Ray Lamontagne
Shelter-Ray Lamontagne
Torn-Creed
To Live is to Die-Metallica
Hell Yeah-Ani Difranco
Does Anybody Hear Her-Casting Crowns
If you're reading this-Tim McGraw
Wild as the Wind-Garth Brooks & Trisha Yearwood
Seven Bridges Road-Eagles
Carry Me Jesus-Katie Giguere
Here I Go Again-Casting Crowns
Miserable at best-Mayday Parade
Just by your Mercy-Katie Giguere
Piano and I-Alicia Keys
Black and Blue-Counting Crows
You and Me-Lifehouse
In this Life-Collin Raye
So far away-Staind
You Save Me-Kenny Chesney
Caught By the River-Doves (OC Soundtrack)
The Red Strokes-Garth Brooks
When it's done it's done-Bruce Cockburn
You Had Time-Ani Difranco
Small World-Ani Difranco
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Tear Drop-Massive Attack (House MD theme)
Broken Wings-Flyleaf
More than a Memory-Garth Brooks
Ghost-Indio Girls
The Difficult Kind (live)-Sheryl Crow, Sarah McLachlan
hold On-Sarah McLachlan
Simple Man (live)-Shinedown
I miss You-Incubus
Everything Changes-Staind
Not a Pretty Girl (SMS/SML version)-Ani Difranco
Only you-David Crowder Band
Done Wrong-Ani Difranco
Butterfly Kisses-Collin Raye
Yahweh-Shawn McDonald
Arms of Love-Kutless
Rise up, Shepherd-David Huntsinger
Fear-Sarah McLachlan
Honey and the Moon-Arthur...? (OC soundtrack)
Sometimes (i wish)-Dallas Green
Punish Me-Edwin McCain
Crash and Burn-Sheryl Crow
Good Enough-Sarah McLachlan
Drive (orchestral live)-Incubus
Capri-Colbie Calliat
Silent all these years-Tori Amos
Hey Jupiter-Tori Amos
Me and Emily-Rachel Proctor
My Jesus-Todd Agnew
Hello I'm in Delaware-Dallas Green
Better than Chocolate-Sarah McLachlan
China-Tori Amos
Ain't That the Way-Ani Difranco
River-Sarah McLachlan
My Own Prison-Creed
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Gone without goodbye-Brian Littrell
Tori (acoustic)-John Mayer & Nickel Creek
Perfectly Done-Shawn McDonald
This Woman's Work-Kate Bush
Homesick-Mercy Me
Little Earthquakes-Tori Amos
Jealous of the Moon-Nickel Creek
Sweet Southern Comfort-Buddy Jewell
Marry Me-Amanda Marshall
Hannah-Ray Lamontagne
I Like You (Farr's Song)-Edie Carey
Fixing Her Hair-Ani Difranco
Violently-Edie Carey
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Songs for Transition/Birth
In Christ Alone-Adrienne Liesching
Deliver Me-David Crowder Band
Hold On-Shawn McDonald
Amazing Love-Rebecca St. James
A Beautiful Collision-David Crowder Band
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
Amazing Grace-Jars of Clay
God of Wonders-?
Only Alive-Jars of Clay
If I could just sit with you awhile-Todd Agnew
Beautiful-Shawn McDonald
Take you back-Jeremy Camp
Wholly yours (B-variant)-David Crowder Band
(instrumental guitar)-Uli Dumschat
It is well with my soul-Katie Giguere
Simply Nothing-Shawn McDonald
I love you-Sarah McLachlan
And now my lifesong sings-Casting Crowns
Wish-Brian Littrell
I wait for the Lord-Jeremy Camp
Mirror-Barlow Girl
Dare you to move-Switchfoot
Redeemer-Nicole C. Mullen
Right here-Jeremy camp
Praise you in the storm-Casting Crowns
Your love is extravagant-Casting Crowns
Lullaby-Creed
Lion of Judah-Katie Giguere
All Creatures-David Crowder Band
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